My third week at work and I’m finally feeling on top of things. Feeling much more comfortable and confident. Yesterday, I had never felt more satisfied when I got around to finish off some issues and the thought of my little baby at home. Before I had Cameron, I never felt happier whenever I managed to complete any jobs. It was just another ordinary achievement. However, Cameron completes everything. I felt so contented looking after him during my maternity leave when career was out of my mind for a little while. And right now, I feel happy that he’s around to complement my accomplishment at work. Him or family no doubt takes precedence over career at present or career/job has become a small part in life. Perhaps every parent thinks the same way or am I  just overly emotional as he’s my first?

Whatever it is, I’m still excited that I’ve personally discovered this new sentiment and I very much believe that I will feel the same way for his future sibling. Seeing him grow so quickly by the day tells both Eng and I that we need to be more discipline and efficient in managing the family to be able to grow alongside with him. I never thought that a baby could develop so much in 7 months – from a tiny softy sleepy infant who only fed on breast milk and needed to be carried all the time into a toddler who is now able to roll, sit and throw his hands and feet all over the place as well as feed on solids! Btw, he loves babbling ‘pau pau pau pau’ repeatedly and it makes me burst with laughter. I can’t imagine having to miss all these milestones if he was cared and lived with either our parents.  It’s already so hard not seeing him for 10 hours while I’m at work.

Anyway, at the end of the day, I’m still pleased that we are able to witness and immensely influence his development with minimal supervision from our family although it’s tiring without additional assistance. But it can’t get any better than to be in total control of your own kid, if you know what I mean? *grin So my advise is try to spend as much time as possible with your little one from the very first day he/she was born as it will never be the same again once he/she grows. I’m so pathetic as whenever I see a mum with a newborn, I would always recall when Cameron was like that although I’ve got him in front of me!

Cameron has been good with the bottle. It has to be MAM though and after making an adhoc comparison with the price of the bottle in KL, seems like it’s a little cheaper here. I’ve also reduced the BF sessions to twice per day – morning and night. During the first 2 weeks at work, I had to express during the day. Subsequently, my body automatically got adjusted to the demand and supply and I could get away without expressing. How amazing is God’s creation! Furthermore, breast milk does not fill Cameron up anymore since he’s already 28 weeks old.

However, the story of our broken nights has yet to end. For some reason, he still wakes up multiple times at night; sometimes for feeds and sometimes for comfort. I still think the reason is feed. Still trying to figure out the correct timing and quantity to give him before bed time. The problem is he can’t drink plenty at once (max 5 oz) and he can’t stay awake very much after 8. So night feeds are inevitable for now.

As for other food besides formula, he has started on solids. We’ve been feeding him baby rice, broccoli, butternut squash, pear, apple, blueberry, avocado, carrots and parsnip. Mostly organic, so his food is definitely pricier than ours! Also, he loves sucking the juice of a whole nectarine. Well he seems to eat anything, so I’m not complaining.