Back to work
It has been a week since I went back to work. A week since my long ‘holidays’ ended. As soon as I’ve returned, I received the news about maternity leave being extended to 9 months for birth after April 2007. Darn!
Anyway, I miss baby-sitting Cameron full-time. Miss being a full-time mum as I’m enjoying motherhood so much. Honestly, I miss those first few weeks of his life. People think I’m lunatic as those were supposed to be the worst moment of all due to sleep and rest deprivation. Some said that once the baby is 6 months old, it would be a lot easier. I don’t think so since Cameron is still not sleeping through the night. Since it doesn’t make any difference to me, I’ve concluded that those first few weeks meant so much more. I do admire the beauty of the arrival of a little human into our lives. It’s like being in a whole new world with a whole new beginning. It’s like a second chance. Looking at his angelic face in his peaceful sleep and the contented smiles after feed were simply invaluable. As a result, Eng and I came to a common consensus that the first 4 months were the best time before he turned into a little monster.
Now the story gets cheesy. Why little monster? That’s because he loves to scream especially when we are having our dinner. He just drives Eng up the wall. We reprimand him but obviously he doesn’t bother. We haven’t really figure out what to do but we will be getting a high-chair this weekend. With it, he can have his snacks and toys while we eat and hopefully that would work.
Still feeling sorry for being a distant from Cameron while I’m at work and not being able to nurture him personally. Then, why back to work? Well, we are probably used to double income and with the money that my parents had invested in my tertiary education; I feel bad for ditching a career. Old-fashioned thought eh? Also, it’s due to never ending commitments here and back home. Furthermore, continuous employment is like an insurance for the future. But is it fair to my baby? No doubt it isn’t but we are doing all we can to give him the best attention that we could possibly give. Parenthood means a lot of worthwhile sacrifices. While we are at work during the day, the rest of the time are dedicated and reserved for Cameron. That’s what I mean by owning 2 jobs. Now I’m experiencing the tough ride of raising a kid even before he starts to crawl. Can’t imagine the challenges ahead.
:) TAKE IT EASY. hopefully you can choose what you want, and choose the path when you can afford it. i think the first 2 years are the important is because cameron starting know how to do the 1st action, the first word he speak, the first step he claw or walk etc. my friends always upset because he/she can’t see it immediately.
Comment by mui mui — August 15, 2007 @ 10:15 am
Yes I haven’t regret so far and still long to personally and be the first to see him develop
Comment by mel — August 15, 2007 @ 12:49 pm
9 months!!??
oh boy!!
what is 2 months in MY?
Comment by Jeff — August 18, 2007 @ 7:01 am
Cameron is lucky to have a mummy like u. I called my Zaydeen a monster from 2nd month..haha! I think I experience the same thing as u - sleep broken nights, a baby who needs to be constantly carried, a baby who knows how to hit at me when I’m not getting milk to her fast enough..geesh the list goes on. But like you, I miss her so much when I am at work and just a simple smile from her can really melt the heart and erase all stress tht built up during the day. I think only parents would understand what other parents feel
Comment by Kristine — September 27, 2007 @ 9:21 am