10 more weeks and the countdown begins. I’m still contemplating if I should go with or without pain relief during labour. Not that my pain threshold is sky high but I’m not very keen on the idea of having large needles and fine tubes inserted into my epidural space for hours. Even with epidural, it might not be effective as certain women might still feel the sensation. There are other types of pain relief like gas and air and TENS, which requires the mum to be in total control, but I’m afraid I can’t handle those in a state of anxiety. No doubt those will aid to divert the attention away from the pain but I don’t really want to handle too many things at the same time, for once! I acknowledge the fact that there is no such thing as a painless labour and delivery but I guess as a first timer, I just don’t know what to expect and what would be best for me. Being well-informed, prepared and relax are the best I can do as it is impossible to relate real-life experience with theories. Guess will just follow what my mind and heart says when the time is right and of course heed the midwives’ advice. All these are only applicable if I can go through a normal delivery and I really hope Cameron will not decide to stay breech or would there be any complications that I need to undergo a surgery. My previous experience with surgery was not very pleasant as it took a long time to heal. And not to forget, the catheter…uurrrghh I hate that! And epidural will most probably need that.

I braved myself to watch “the” video at the antenatal class on Tuesday and it wasn’t as bad as I expected. No bloody scenes like what you get in C-sections (caesarians). Whatever it is, I hope my body will release more endorphins to combat with the adrenaline that is slowly elevating. I guess it’s coping well as I managed to stay calm and recover from soar throat, cough, chillness and tiredness over the last 2-3 days without any medication. I believe it’s also due to the increased progesterone hormones in pregnancy that helps the body to stay calm (no wonder I’ve been more patient at work ever since :p). I only gurgled some nasty sea salt water and had plenty of honey + lemon drinks. Honey does really help to get you into a good night sleep. I practically slept like a baby last night. Although I’m not as energetic compared to my second trimester when I could still do lots of cooking and moving about, I just pray that I will continue to stay calm, healthy and strong for the coming weeks as the most important day approaches. With our upcoming busy schedule with house moving, shopping and Christmas gatherings, that should occupy my mind quite a bit.